True to Myself

Today has been a day of great awakening for me. I have discovered that I have not been true to myself - to the spirit of who I really am - for quite some time. This has, unfortunately, cost me my relationship, but also brought me down as a person. I have spent the past two years perpetuating a fabricated version of who I am. I have lied to everyone I know, including myself, and don't want to do that anymore.

I won't pretend that this is confidence in my previous choice of career paths - I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate. However, this awakening does bring me a renewed confidence in who I am. I feel that today I am a much better person than I was yesterday.

Anyone who reads this blog and knows me personally has been lied to by some point. Not necessarily by the creation of a falsehood, but by the omission of the truth. I apologize to my friends and family for this, and there is one person in particular who I have apologized to and sincerely regret misleading.

I will explain to everyone, personally, what I mean when I say these things - I will not talk about it here. But do know, and I hope you believe this, any time something struck you as being particularly bright about me in the past few years, it was this David, the one writing this today, shining through the darkness of the clouds of deception I have drawn about me. The last two years of my life have not been a lie in their entirety. They simply haven't been entirely truthful.