A Giant Among Men

It is very strange for me to feel so insufficiently motivated to continue working towards becoming a filmmaker. I would like to eventually direct my own feature-length film, but I don't want to do it right now. I want to go back to school. I want to make some money. I want to get some life experience under my belt, then go write about it and make a movie. A huge part of my concern now is over the fact that I have nothing to write about. There are not many ideas rolling around in my head that are worth putting to paper.

All the solid ground I've stood on for the past few years has disappeared. Everything I had to keep me steady as I go has fallen away. I feel confined by this apartment and, in some ways, scared of what's outside of it.