From Kent

I don't know what this note was in reference to, but I wrote it down around the time I was supposed to be filming one of my projects back at NYU:

"Sometimes it's the only choice we have, and it's the choice we have to make." - Kent Sanderson

With no context, the quote seems very generic and obvious, but at the time, it would have been relatively poignant if I took the time to write it down.

I'm trying not to bullshit myself anymore. I lie every time someone asks me if I still do anything creative; the truth is, I don't. I don't write. I don't apply my long-practiced creative abilities to even the most remotely useful imaginative exercises.

So, with no false promises being made here about what I will start (or re-start) doing in that regard, I will at least acknowledge that I haven't done enough for myself - I certainly cannot look at what I've done since graduating and state with any degree of certitude that the amount I have paid (or have yet to pay, as is truly the case) for my college education has been justified.

I have begun to trek down the path of disillusionment with my life so far, hastened by the ever-increasing sense that I have failed many goals that could have been achievable with a more focused and driven pursuit on my part.

At the least, I believe that acknowledging these things helps the process of getting myself back on track - the first step is always to become aware of the situation, however good or bad it may be, which then allows you to formulate a plan to improve your situation.